Practice acceptance...

Not sure why, but all of a sudden all of the friends announcing pregnancies, giving birth, talking about or complaining about their new babies, and posting pictures of them is really getting to me.

I just have to practice acceptance in so many parts of my life and this is one area I don't want to.

I hate this class!

I just have to say that Research and Statistics SUCKS!!!!!!!!

I am so freakin lost and confused and I hate it, hate it, hate it! And what really sucks...my next class is the same thing, level 2......aaaaaaaaaaaargh!!! Bad, bad timing for this class.

Haven't written in a while...

I could make all kinds of excuses as to why I haven't written in a while, but the honest truth is...I didn't want to. I told myself it was because of another failed cycle...I told myself it was because of Christmas break...I told myself it was because I have my nephew living here...I just didn't do it.

So, here I am now...let me tell you about our Christmas break. We (My Love, two 4 year olds, the dog, and I) drove halfway across the country to visit family. On our way, we visited my grandmother. There was no snow on the ground except where it was plowed from a parking lot...so we searched for a section of clean snow and let them play...

On our way from there to my parents, we drove through a cattle drive and that was pretty awesome except that our dog went insane because our car was surrounded by cows.

When we got to our destination, it snowed, so that was really awesome for the kids.

They had so much fun sledding

Ok, so I'm sure that moment wasn't fun for him...they hit a snow bank and it got him in the face...

and eating snow

and making snow angels!

The kids helped Papa and My Love to clean the pheasants they shot too.

We visited friends and family and had a good time and we had a great time on our way home. 
We stopped to visit some friends and went ice skating (both kids first time),

I have to say that she kicked butt at ice-skating!! She didn't want help and if she fell, she got right back up!

Our little buddy needed a lot more help, but he did really well

then went to the Gateway Arch the next day

The weather was icky and windy when we went into the arch...

but it cleared up some as we were there

That is a long ways down...

as we left the arch, the sun was out (but it was still very windy)

and drove to spend New Year's with our good friends and their children.

We drove through a lot of mountains on our final leg of the journey and let the kids out to play at one point:

We were all glad to be home when we finally got here...

Oh...I just realized I forgot to mention anything about Christmas!! I didn't get what I wanted, but it's been 3 years of that...so pretty used to that...anyhow...

We had a lot of fun at my mom and dad's for a small gift exchange:

Gramma got everyone silly suckers!

And the men all got silly string!

We had a fantastic time with my extended relatives for our Christmas gift exchange and party!!! There were 31 of us there and it was awesome! We didn't have room at anyone's home, so we celebrated it in my family's bar. Here is a picture





Santa came for the kids (guess they must've been good!)

No point in testing...

Well, I can say with certainty that this last IUI did not work. It sucks, it really does...and for today, it's kind of hard for me to make that final acceptance with myself that it is probably over, but if I'm being honest, right now is not the time to add a baby to our family. We have our nephew living with us who is the same age as Lil Miss, My Love will be deploying soon, I may have to move to get the kids into a better school district, I am starting work....I think that is more than enough right now...it's just accepting the finality of it all...

Busy time of year

It has been amazingly busy for me and I fear it is only going to get more so. We have our wonderful nephew A living with us right now and he will be celebrating Christmas with us. He and V have been having so much fun together though it is a learning experience for them both. They are both headstrong and tattle-tellers so we have had a lot of correcting, but it will all work out. They are both 4.5 years old, so what can I expect...really? LOL

I feel very guilty because I was nominated for a blog award and have yet to get around to doing my portion...but I will...I PROMISE!! I just have to get ahead on some school work. I have 1.5 weeks left of this class and then I will have a MUCH needed break for a few short weeks over the holidays.

I have so many other things I have slipped on. I need to make more phone calls for work, I need to register & get the new car inspected (just a gas-saver older Honda Accord that we got really cheap), I have to clean my house (it's getting cluttery), I have to get my truck fixed, I have to relax...

I was able to spend some time with my great friend R tonight getting facials. It was a gift from her and we have both been so busy that we weren't able to take advantage of it earlier, so we finally made it...my face feels fantastically smooth and soft. It was my first facial, but I am pretty sure I'll have another one again soon. It was nice.

V has her little Christmas concert tomorrow night for her preschool and I'm excited for her. It will be so cute. I hope My Love can make it and doesn't get stuck at work...they are getting ready for their upcoming deployment (ugh).

Anyhow, other than that, all is well...just busy.

Fertility wise - I'm about 6 days past IUI and I have no clue what is going on down there...lots of cramping, I can say that. I don't plan on testing anytime soon, so please don't ask. I will post when I do though.

Well, I'm off...super-mom still has homework to do...

wham, bam, thank you Dr.

Well, I am now done with my 6th IUI and praying that since this one actually has some differences from the other 5 (more eggs!) that it might work. We had good counts, good eggs, and a good Dr....can't really complain. The whole procedure only takes about 45 seconds and then it's over and I laid there for my 15 minutes playing games on my new phone, then threw my clothes back on and went out to lunch with my husband...

An educational video for you. :o

Now, off for my next adventure of the day...which will NOT be a wham, bam mission...it will be torturous and evil...I have a cavity on the back of my wisdom tooth that I am going to go get filled....ouch, ouch, ouch!
Wish mine was this easy...

2 to 4...nothing less, nothing more...

I went in for my Ultrasound yesterday morning. Dr P came in and asked if I wanted to make a guess on how many were in there...I said, that I wasn't sure, but I know something is going on down there cause I am bloated and feeling "full"...then, I said "I want 2 to 4, nothing less, and nothing more"...

Well, he checked the right ovary first and besides my little pearl necklace of small follicles in there, there were 2 nice large follicles in the right ovary. Then we checked the left and had 2 more!

So, I got 2-4, nothing less, nothing more. Estradiol levels confirmed it too! OMG!

This is the FIRST time in 23 months of fertility drugs that I have had more than 1 egg from the meds!!! I am to trigger Wednesday night and we are scheduled to do an IUI on Thursday morning!