Thursday, July 29, 2010

Busy as a me...

I am soooo glad not to be sick anymore (well, mostly over it...still a bit of a cough). I can finally leave the house and go do stuff with my baby and my hubby!

Today my little mermaid and I went swimming and had a blast! She is such a little fishy (she says mermaid) and swims all over the place. Swim lessons was one of the best things I've ever done.

Yesterday I had a doctor's appointment early in the morning and learned how to give myself injections of a fertility medicine that I will do for at least the next week and hopefully all of this will result in a baby for us. :)

After the doctor appointment, we went to a children's museum in Lumberton, NC. It was cute and we had a lot of fun. It was like going to an indoor park basically, which was nice because it has been SOOOOOOOOOOOOO hot outside. Everyday has been "feels like" over 100 degrees. ICK!

Still no word on My Love's situation, so we are taking it day by day at the moment and hoping that the Army pulls through for us.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Someday will be my day...

So, in the past two weeks, I have had 4 people I know come up of which was not trying and the baby was unwanted...the other 3 have been trying for a while and I honestly am happy for them. I just wonder...why not me? When will it be my turn?
It's easy for all of you who are pregnant, or who get pregnant SUPER easy, to tell me to "stop trying" because GUESS WHAT? I can't! I can't just stop wanting and I can't stop "trying" because I have to have medical intervention at this point in my life to be able to ovulate to make a Gosh darned egg to come out to GET :p.
My best friend just had her second baby and a TON of people I know are pregnant right now...everyone I see in the stores, restaurants and everywhere else I go are pregnant or have brand-new is just kind of a pity-me day and I'm frustrated and scared. Scared that our next step, Artificial Insemination, will not work, and then who knows what...I don't know...I guess I should just keep focusing on me and losing weight...AAAAAAARGH. stupid body.

And on top of all of that...two of the ones that are pregnant were my confidants in this struggle...and now I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to about this. I am tired of talking about it to people who CAN'T understand (through no fault of their own) and now I feel like they can't either...they, of course, now just will be your time soon. AND I'm sure my friends are tired of hearing about it from me...just makes me sad.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Halfway there...

I am only about 3 pounds from my birthday goal...with more than a month to reach it still and am about halfway done with my total goal...which is what I weighed as a senior in high school...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Getting closer to my goal...

I am hoping that this pneumonia/bronchitis is not the reason for the latest weight drop and that it will stay off, but dropped some more pounds recently. I have been eating completely different than I am used to and am doing pretty good on it. Everything has been low-fat and complex carbs basically.

Right now, I would LOVE to go out walking, but I can hardly breathe, let alone catch enough of a breath to go walking in this humidity! It's hard just sitting on the couch...this sucks.

Either way, I am happy to see the scale going down. Still have a ways to go to reach my goal, but I am on my way!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Victoria's Birthday Party...and more!

Well, today we had Victoria's 3rd birthday party. It was so much fun and so busy and I am happy that it is done. :) It really was fun, but man...that will wear a person out!! She (and we) had a lot of friends here and the kids played in the pool and broke a pinata and ate food and had birthday cake and opened presents and was a mad house for a while. I hardly even ate...I stole a hot dog at one point, a couple of olives, and a piece of cake. I took tons of photos and chatted up a storm. It was awesome seeing everyone and we were overwhelmed with the generosity of gifts! This little girl got spoiled this year!

My Love's military career is now up-in-the-air but we will figure it all out and keep everyone updated.

I am going to put Victoria in gymnastics soon. I think she'd love it, she's such a little monkey and a tumbler.

I think I am coming down with a cold. EW! This sucks. I'll write more later. Too many distractions.