Today is a tough day for me. I just found out a couple of my friends are pregnant and been seeing lots of pregnant people lately and holding several babies. I just want to crawl in a hole and cry...I hate this. I hate feeling this way. I hate knowing that it's so easy for some people and it does NOT help to think I am not in this alone...I know there are people who have it worse than me, at least I have one...but it does not make me want another one any less. This moment sucks. and now to go eat dinner...maybe.