And while I wish her the happiest first birthday, in the dark infertile corner of my mind, I fall apart.
This is not just to one person...this is to LOTS of people...While you may see your baby's first birthday...I see 1 year and 9 months that have passed without ever seeing a positive pregnancy test and countless needles...1 year, 9 months of hormones, stress, emotions, and lots of tears.
I know that in that same time I have had some of the best blessings with my life, my husband, and my daughter, but it doesn't ease the ache in my heart for another baby.
Anyhow...I didn't mean to have to somewhat whiny posts in two days, but I have had several friends have babies in the past few days and several who have celebrated first birthdays within the last few months (and some coming up)...it just gets to ya.
On a separate note, I had a great time today at a local festival. :)
I got nauseous riding the rides (too much spinning!)...never any fun, but I feel much better now.
Here is our pumpkins from Halloween: