What do I say to that?

Ok, I actually had a fantastic day today. Did great food-wise (until this evening...see below). Mowed a few lawns, got some housework done, and had dinner with a friend. After dinner we went to a local fair and rode on rides and ate a funnel cake & bloomin onion (see...bad food...but oh-so-good!). It really was a lot of fun!

So, as for my blog title...on the way home, my daughter says to me, "Mommy, can [boy] by my brother?"
Me: "Why?"
V: "Because I always wanted to be a sister and if he is my brother then I will be his sister"

It's so cute, it really is...so I just said "You can pretend  he is your brother when he is around."

It's time for a break...ADDED PHOTOS

Today is my beautiful daughter's first day of preschool. She is going to love it, I just know it!! I am excited for her. While she is at school, I will be going to a library to work on my homework...so it's school for both of us.

This morning my temps dropped to coverline...so for all of you who don't know what that means, I am NOT pregnant. It's ok. really. I need a break. It might only be one month, but I still need it. I am tired of shoving needles in my stomach day after day to only get one egg, I'm tired of the emotional struggle, I'm tired of making tough decisions with My Love like choosing to do an IUI or go natural...

So, BREAK TIME!

EDIT!! Adding photos of her first day of school!!

Tomorrow is a new day...

Tomorrow is my sweet daughter's first day of preschool...well, half day actually. I know she is pretty excited and so am I. I really hope she has fun and learns a lot. She is going to a private school for 2 half-days a week. They are very learning oriented and do not even have a playground. I love it. She can play at home, but since she is only there a short time, I'm glad it will be for learning. 

Today I am 10DPO, 12DPTrigger. I do not plan on testing for another 4 days, if AF doesn't show her ugly face before then. We shall see.


I have to start getting up a bit earlier and working out. I also have to start watching what I eat a bit better. I have been very bad lately about night snacking...I am setting a rule in my house that I will not eat anything after dinner...so, no later than 7:30pm. I think this will help me to go to bed earlier also because the later I stay up, the more I want to snack on stuff. Going to bed earlier will help me to wake up earlier. See...makes sense, right? Man, I hope so because I have gained about 10lbs back and need to fix it. I can't be this way. I HAVE to lose weight. Ideally, I would like to be 50lbs less than I weigh now, but even 30lbs would be fantastic. I would like to lose 10lbs by the end of the month and 30 by Christmas...I think that is doable...I just have to stick by it...

Why would you "like" that status???

Ok, this is going to sound harsh I'm afraid, but really...

I posted the status message (on Facebook):

Out of nowhere, V asks "Mommy, one day, could we have a baby brother?" I asked why...she said "so I can dance with him"

Now while this is cute (adorable really)...it makes me sadder than I can even explain...because it's something I'm not sure I can ever give her...and I don't have a good explanation for her...I told her she has to ask God...so she says "well, where is He?" Of course I explained He is all around us, blah blah blah...but the point is...there is nothing more in the world I'd love to give her...but I can't.

I understand that for those who don't know I've been dealing with infertility for 3 years would "like" this status, but for those who DO know what I've been through...this IS NOT something I like...not at all. 

I'm not even sure if I want to post this because someone will think I'm too harsh or unappreciative of what I have and of the friends I have...but, this is the truth...I don't like that status...but it really is adorable. 

 

Procrastination...

When it comes to some things, I am the worst procrastinator...I am doing it now actually. I am avoiding doing my paper and my PowerPoint presentation like the plague...I have been going back and forth between the devilish Facebook and other sites, praying that someone will entertain me enough to give me an excuse not to do my homework at this moment. I blame it on things like the fact that V is in the bath, V is still awake, V is playing...I blame it on everything but what it really is which is plain old simple procrastination. Once I get started, I know it will go quickly, but it is a matter of getting my head in the right place to get it started.
AAAARGH!!! Ok...have to do this...have to do this...getting off of here right now to do this. Really...

Happy Labor Day!

Well, it is Labor Day weekend and V and I will be hanging out for it. We will probably go to the kids museum and park and watch some movies. Maybe do some coloring or somethings.

I am feeling a bit uninspired but know that I have a bunch of stuff to do around the house. I need to clean up the yard, rake it, mow it...I need to clean our office, do laundry, go through V's toys, and maybe do some projects around the house.

Money is pretty tight right now, so I am just working on pretty much not spending any...including gas. I hate living like this.

Trying not to be boring...

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I don't have much to say...I've been bored, but trying to not be BORING for my daughter. We hit up the library yesterday. I have decided to try the Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. I keep reading people's review of this series and it seems addictive, so I decided to give it a shot.

We also went to the movie yesterday, saw Winnie the Pooh. It was really cute! I thought I would find it boring, but it actually made me giggle a few times and I enjoyed it. That, and the fact that it only cost me $5 total for entrance, drinks, and a popcorn for my daughter and I...perfect.

I am trying to be a bit more experimental with my cooking...I have hit a lull lately and am getting tired of the same ol', same ol'.

I am 6 DPO. Two weeks wait is boring and LONG. I have been temping, but never know quite what to think of it at this point.

I have been trying to call and hang out with my friends a bit more and become a better friend myself. I love my friends and miss just chillin with them. It's not so easy when you have kids sometimes, but I'm figuring it out.

I think I am finally at peace with the fact that V may be an only child...so does this mean I should keep trying medically for #2? If this cycle doesn't work, do I ask for the Ovarian Drilling and if it happens from there, then so be it? Do I do it without the drilling? I'm really not sure what I want to do. My Love is happy with V, but wouldn't mind another...he's at the same point in his thoughts as I am...I have to start praying more on this for some answers.

Anyway, here are some photos of my beautiful V and our family of three!!