Ready or not?

Well, my tomatoes are ready...

My strawberries are ready...

The flowers are ready to bloom or are blooming...

but my eggs, they're not yet ready...and the timing sucks! My Love leaves for training just in time for me to be ready, but there are options we can use to get what we need...they just cost money. Money I don't want to spend on this stuff, but I did not stick needles in my stomach for the last 9 days and will continue to for the next several days for nothing.

There are a few follicles growing. One bigger one in my left ovary (this is the FIRST time in over a year to get one on my left), and a few smaller ones in my right. Nurse D will call me later with my Estradiol levels to let me know if they are eggs or cysts ***Please be eggs!!!

On a different note...Lambchop is getting quite big. Wouldn't be so bad if he didn't attack my daughter every time she went outside.

V is loving her bed! She and Daddy both sit up there to read stories:

And she loves to hide in the storage steps:

And likes to just play in the top part: 

  

I finished my accounting class and start a new one today...business communications. I had better go and entertain my baby girl for a while. Have a great day!

UPDATE!!! My daughter shouldn't have to see me like this...

It's not often I post twice in one day but...since my last post, it has been very emotional for me. A bit of TMI for some readers, but my cycle started, which means I call my fertility doctors to schedule the next round of drugs and monitoring and all of that.

This is great news! Until...I called. My fertility Dr. and his staff are on vacation and nobody will be seen until May 2nd. Really? I mean...REALLY!?!?!?!?!?! As soon as they told me I could not start this cycle I just broke down...I couldn't even finish talking to the girl on the phone.

I timed this cycle perfectly (with the help of the birth control pills) so that when My Love came home my body was ready for his goods and we could get pregnant...and now I'm being told...nope, too bad...NO!

This sucks! 

What makes it worse is he leaves again in a month for MORE training...I don't know...I'm starting to think it's just not supposed to happen for us and it's killing me. I am having trouble stopping the tears from flowing and hiding them from my daughter right now.

She shouldn't have to see me this way. Why does this have to be so hard? Why do some people get pregnant so easily...even when they don't want to?

I am honestly debating on using the thousands of dollars of fertility drugs I have on my own and just hoping I ovulate on my own with whatever I end up with...I'm sure that would be stupid, but I'm not willing to give up this cycle yet.

I'm just pissed and hurt and frustrated and want to scream...

UPDATE!! SHE CALLED! I am to start my injections this Thursday and go in for my first Ultrasound for monitoring next Wednesday. Whew!