Tuesday, April 26, 2011

UPDATE!!! My daughter shouldn't have to see me like this...

It's not often I post twice in one day but...since my last post, it has been very emotional for me. A bit of TMI for some readers, but my cycle started, which means I call my fertility doctors to schedule the next round of drugs and monitoring and all of that.

This is great news! Until...I called. My fertility Dr. and his staff are on vacation and nobody will be seen until May 2nd. Really? I mean...REALLY!?!?!?!?!?! As soon as they told me I could not start this cycle I just broke down...I couldn't even finish talking to the girl on the phone.

I timed this cycle perfectly (with the help of the birth control pills) so that when My Love came home my body was ready for his goods and we could get pregnant...and now I'm being told...nope, too bad...NO!

This sucks! 

What makes it worse is he leaves again in a month for MORE training...I don't know...I'm starting to think it's just not supposed to happen for us and it's killing me. I am having trouble stopping the tears from flowing and hiding them from my daughter right now.

She shouldn't have to see me this way. Why does this have to be so hard? Why do some people get pregnant so easily...even when they don't want to?

I am honestly debating on using the thousands of dollars of fertility drugs I have on my own and just hoping I ovulate on my own with whatever I end up with...I'm sure that would be stupid, but I'm not willing to give up this cycle yet.

I'm just pissed and hurt and frustrated and want to scream...

UPDATE!! SHE CALLED! I am to start my injections this Thursday and go in for my first Ultrasound for monitoring next Wednesday. Whew!


  1. Is it possible for you to find a new doctor in time?

  2. Ugh. Fertility specialists should have another Dr. lined up to cover for them if they are going to be absent. Honestly, they know their patients are fragile-- emotionally and sometimes physically.

    Any chance you could do BC for another week then come off it when they are back in business? Or would that throw your whole schedule off (re: your man etc.)?

  3. If I knew about this ahead of time I would have stayed on the BCPills, but my cycle already started, today, so it wouldn't work to go back on them right now...trust me...I have thought about it. My only options for Dr's (because of military) would be to go to Washington D.C. I think...and I would have to have a referral to go there, so...unfortunately...without paying completely out of pocket, I can't do it.