Tuesday, September 20, 2011

My Ovaries Hurt...

Apparently having a humongous cyst in your ovary hurts...really...I have had to deal with my polycystic ovaries for some time now, but those are usually small cysts all over inside of my ovaries and they never hurt. They have been giving me pains on and off for a few weeks and yesterday the ultrasound showed one cyst at 25mm and it does not feel good. Dr. P. and Nurse D put me on birth control pills for at least the next month to help get rid of the cyst. This cyst is leftover (I'm positive) from the last cycle where I had 2 follicles...1 of which was a cyst, and 1 was an egg.

See, for those of you that don't know, this cyst will gobble up all of the good egg making hormones and continue to grow unless it is suppressed by other hormones (the birth control pills) and with the cyst there, regular eggs cannot develop. Soooooo, that being said...nothing is happening for us. again. There really never is good news for me to share with the world fertility wise...each time I go it's a disappointment of one kind or another.

That being said, we just got word of deployment news very soon, so I am just going to say that I think we're done. We will not quit "trying" until he leaves, but that pretty much leaves us a few months to do what hasn't happened in 3 years, so I am pretty sure it's 1 baby for us, and a beautiful one she is too. My ovaries physically hurt from the cyst, and my uterus aches for a baby, but my head and my heart know that I have the one child, my miracle, that I was supposed to have.


  1. I'm sorry to hear about the cyst but it's good that you caught it before it burst. 3 cysts burst during my last IUI cycle and I was in so much pain - probably the worst pain I've ever been in. I hope that one of your upcoming cycles go well and that you get your miracle baby that you've been waiting and trying for for so long now.

  2. aww I'm so sorry to hear about the cyst and deployment. I know it must be very hard to come to the decision to stop seeking out treatment to fulfill your dream but you are right. You have a perfect baby already. Cherish the hell out of her ((hugs)) I'll continue to pray you are able to get a miracle still though. Stranger things have happened!!