Significant dates...

You know, I hate doing this to myself, and I wouldn't have, but my Fertility Friend site (the one where I record my daily Basal Body Temperatures for Fertility) is having a temporary free upgrade and pointed this out to me...

If we conceived this cycle, it will have been on August 25th (my birthday) and the due date will My Love's birthday in May...

So, here's to a hopeful birthday baby.

What hurricane?

Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes! I had a great birthday and spent time with friends and family. On my birthday we had an awesome dinner and I had a great night last night going out for my birthday also! We had dinner, drinks, and dancing. It was awesome!! Now, we didn't get in until after 2 am and my lovely daughter decided to get up early today...so, she laid in bed with me and I put some cartoons on while I dozed a bit more. I know my friends think I'm crazy, but I really enjoyed cleaning on my birthday. Sometimes it can be such a chore, but it wasn't that way for my birthday.

I gave myself my trigger shot on Wednesday night and we have been enjoying ourselves since then. We decided not to do an IUI this cycle. According to my temps I did indeed O, so that is good. Now, for the 2WW....

So, Hurricane Irene was a friggin joke...well, at least where I am. We had no power loss, some wind, and some rain...really wasn't bad at all. As I sit here there are still some good gusts going on out there, but nothing more than any normal thunderstorm.



On a totally separate note, I think Bailey (our 9 year old Weimaraner) is getting down to months...she has some pretty large lumps under her backlegs and they have been getting larger. One of them, the left one, has not gotten very hard and heavy. As long as she is still moving around without any obvious pain, we will let her be. It is sad and it bothers me that she has them at all, but we chose not to do surgery because it would be very invasive and expensive and painful.

It's my birthday today

Today I am 31 years old...I remember wanting so badly to turn 21 and here I am ten years later, though it's hard to believe it's been ten years! Today, we will be enjoying some birthday freebies around town and just hanging out. So, have a great day on my birthday!!

This is going to hurt...

The doctor gave me 18 gauge needles when I usually do the trigger shot with a 21 (see the difference???)...oh, this is about to suck!!!

Calculated Risks...What to do...

So, I am not sure what to do...do I do another IUI or do we just have good, old fashioned baby making? 

The success rates for IUI's are not much higher than doing so naturally, as long as there is a good sperm count. 

"The overall success rate (for an IUI) seems to be between 15-20 percent per cycle, judging from the articles which will be abstracted below." http://www.fertilityplus.org/faq/iui.html

Whereas the success rate of naturally trying for a woman in her 30's are: 20%. http://www.health.com/health/article/0,,20411697,00.html

So, knowing that I have at least one, maybe two maturing follicles in my ovaries and have a trigger shot...I know I will ovulate...is it worth going through the IUI, or should we do this on our own this time? 

We do not have sperm issues, there are plenty and they are healthy...it's a matter of ovulation for us.

I just don't know what to do because we have done 5 IUI's and all have failed...and it feels like this whole process has gotten so technical and scientific...

My Love and I have a decision to make, but would love your input and suggestions.

2 Follies, IUI Friday

So, did my ultrasound this morning and had 2 follicles. Estradiol levels were 133, so I do the trigger shot tomorrow night and have an IUI on Friday, which is the day after my birthday. KMFX

To say, or not to say...

You know, growing up I was always told that if I could not say something nice, then I shouldn't say anything at all...well, I think the same thing goes when you're typing something to someone...like commenting etiquette.

For instance, one of my fellow bloggers was called a "twat" by an 'anonymous' blogger because she was (very rightfully) complaining that she was suffering from morning sickness. This girl fought hard to get pregnant, going through multiple IVF's and more and I understand that 'anon' didn't want to read someone else's pregnancy complaints when assumably this 'anon' is probably suffering from infertility also. I know it hurts, but did it help 'anon' to put down someone else? To say something (very) mean?

Then, I get a comment that basically states that maybe God doesn't want me to have another child and that me wanting it is selfish. This, on a blog post about how awesome my daughter is and how if I do not get another it will be more than ok because I have been blessed with her. Now, don't get me wrong, the whole comment was not bad, it stated that maybe there is another child out there for us, even if I don't birth that child...and I have said this before.

I agree, maybe it is God's will that V be an only child, but what step do I take next? Do I get off the fertility meds and pray that it happens on it's own? Do I just quit trying? If My Love and I decide to call it quits, it will REALLY be quits...either we go back on birth control or he gets fixed. I have decided this is not because I don't want an 'oops' child, but because I don't want to hope and pray every month and to be disappointed time and again for years to come. Do I start looking into adoption? What next?

So, another thought crossed into my head...saying I should not pursue getting pregnant again because it might mess with God's plan for me, is like me telling someone they should not receive medical treatments (like chemo) that would save their lives because maybe they are supposed to be dead and they are messing with God's plan too...
Ok, maybe not that drastic, but you get it.