Monday, May 23, 2011

Let me tell you how it happened...

Ok, I debated on writing this post this week, because of the IF (infertility) community visiting my blog, but I do not hide the fact that I am suffering from SECONDARY infertility, meaning I already have one let me tell you about how we got pregnant the first time....NO...I know how babies are MADE...and not sharing THAT story...just read LOL.

We had been married for 5 years before we started trying to get pregnant, but I knew we were going to have problems because I had never had regular cycles before. I was 25 and My Love was 27. I had been on birth control since I was 17. I had been on the Depo shot for about a year when we decided to try and my Dr. had told me that it could take up to a year to get pregnant after getting off of the shot...well, one year later, I had never even had a period...hmmm...problem! (At this point, I wasn't that worried, but wanting to get started so I went to the Dr.)

I went through many blood tests and was sent to an Endocrinologist and diagnosed with PCOS very quickly. I was put on Metformin (for PCOS) and Provera (to start my cycle). My OB had prescribed me Clomid and I had the prescription in my junk drawer at home because we wanted to try ONE MORE MONTH by ourselves first. Well, after JUST two cycles of Provera and Metformin, we were pregnant! 

I knew it, before I even took a test. My breasts hurt so bad, like they had been used as punching bags, and they had never hurt before. I took a test at 2am because I couldn't sleep, not knowing and when it came out positive I was scared. Shitless.

Oh My God...did I really want a baby right now? We had such a great life! We traveled, we partied...this was going to change everything! How was I going to tell my husband? Do I wake him up? No...if I wake him, he'll be up all night and be grumpy in the morning...ok...go to the computer.
I went upstairs to our computer room and looked up my due date, July 17th, 2007 and what the baby was doing that week (LOVE BABYCENTER)! I looked up cute ways to tell my husband, I was beginning to get excited, instead of scared...this could be a great thing, right?!?!

The next morning, after my husband grabbed his coffee and went out back for his morning cigarette, I put a little note in our dog's collar that read "Congratulations Daddy, Mommy says I'm going to be a big sister!" and I sent Bailey out to him. (I hid in our bedroom and peeked at him through the blinds to watch this interaction). He grabbed the note, opened and read it...put it down, and then picked it up and read it again. He did that a few times so I finally went out to him.

He looked up at me and said: "You're pregnant?"
Me: "Yes"
Him: "Congratulations"
Me: "Ummm...we're BOTH having a baby"
Him: "Oh...yeah...we have to call our parents!"
So, at about 6am, my parents get a phone call from my husband stating we were pregnant, and then we got ready to go to work, I worked with his parents, where he proceeded to announce to them that we were pregnant...and then, then it was real...and it was wonderful!

Fast forward: that was the ONLY time I've been pregnant and it resulted in my gorgeous little girl! Her birth story will come's an interesting one...

This is one of the reasons I never, EVER thought it could take this long to make another see two lines on a test bless my daughter with a sister or brother... 

How long will we have to wait??


  1. Love this story!! I pray you don't have to wait much longer! Hang in there! I know it is hard to wait, I know. I am rootin for you!!

  2. Hi, I found your blog on ICLW. I hope you're wait for #2 is not too far off. Wish you the best!


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  4. Well, this just answered some of my questions from my previous comment. lol What a sweet story. I truly hope that you won't have too wait much longer for that second BFP!

  5. I think it can be hard to find the balance of how much to share, knowing that we have so many struggling with IF visiting our blogs, especially during ICLW week. We struggled for years, and still are, but I try to be sensitive when posting about my daughter. I think you're doing a great job!

    Thanks so much for sharing this story. Wishing you a BFP very soon!

  6. That is a really cute story! I went through both primary and secondary infertility (knowing the 2nd time it would take a while) and I think the 2nd time it was definitely more frustrating and devastating until I became pregnant with my twins! Good luck with your journey! I just added your link and following you now!