Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Check Please!

Tomorrow I go in for my first follicle check for this cycle. I have never been on this medicine before and I am hoping it is doing its job. I pray for a few good follicles and NO CYSTS! Please, God, Please no cysts!

Victoria is not a morning person...but she will have to be tomorrow...I have a 6am Dr. appt that she will be coming with me for. We'll see how it goes.

I am so tired of doing this game. I am so tired of this roller coaster. It's been almost 3 years. I want to see the extra line on a pregnancy test. I want to post ultrasound pictures of a baby, instead of ovaries full of cysts. I want to announce my weekly pregnancy update to the world. I want to hold my new baby. I want to complain about my new baby not sleeping through the night. I want to boast when he/she does. I want to share milestones with the world. I want to STOP reading everyone else's updates and happiness with jealousy in my heart. I want to be joyous in their celebrations. I want to be me again. I miss me.


  1. Ericka I am sure that this whole situation is extremely frustrating for you, I can only Imagine. But you have to have faith that it will happen. I'm sure that when u least expect it or maybe just take your mind off of it for a little while then BOOM it will happen. Also I hope you don't take this the wrong way but maybe it has been a blessing, what I mean is look at all of the things that you and Victoria have gotten to enjoy together. You have all the time and love and attention to give to her. Sometimes I wish Jenna and I could spend a little more one on one time together. But I'm sure that it will happen for you all just keep faith and hope and if you all ever need anything just let Josh and I know. We r thinking of u all and miss you! Take care!

  2. I want all those things for you, too!!!!

  3. Fingers crossed for some good follicles and NO CYSTS!!!